ISKCON Destroys a Whole Generation of Devotee's Lives


"I have so much pain in my heart.... So much pain and tears... If you could just see what you have done to me.. to us.... All in the name of worshiping Krsna.... Well now krnsna can kiss my suicidle ass! Cause that's all I think about is just ENDING my miserable life.... Everyday I have to find a reason why I should stay. I have nothing but you and all your Gurukul Vetren."

The pain you teachers and gbc put me threw......the isolations, segregating me from my parents and family......all the times i was molested and then finally raped YOU the devotees and your PHILOSOPHY said it was my fault my the age of 8 or nine my gurukula teacher told me to thank krsna that this man violated me now and not later, that i was paying for my karma, i must have done the same in my past life to a child and now i must accept what happened as krsnas mercy, tell that to my badly swollen 9 year old hairless vagina! another time at 10 it was my fault cause to many bramacharies had crushes and any prabhupada said woman are the fire and men are the butter.....believe me there were many molestations and tons of excuses and no ONE PROTECTED ME! NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!

how many of our molesters got found out and just moved around to another temple by the GBC to avoid prosecution....HOW many GBC's are molesters them selves!

my nightmares and daymares is all i have people completely PHUCKED ME! i worshiped the ground my teachers and elders WALKED on and all i got was hit called a prostitute all the time, for like not covering my head or looking at the bramacharis as they danced all around the temple like horny bulls!.....I cant beleive the things you people made me do......drinking foot juice from bavananda another molester! or when i spilled my food i had to eat it off the floor and my juice or milk to....cause its prasadam, you people treated me like shit and cant even do right by me.

you'v done some evil and just plain TERORizing things to me and to my godbrothers and sisters. I watched, i witnessed all the exgeration here Anutuma. You are the spokesperson for a bunch of child molesters and control FREAKS.

i have so much pain in my much pain and tears..

if you could just see what you have done to me.. to us....all in the name of worshiping krsna....well now krnsna can kiss my suicidle ass! cause thats all i think about is just ENDING my miserable life.... everyday i have to find a reason why i should stay. i have nothing but you and all your tortures to keep me crazy....

i sit here remembering all that anutama has said, all that ISCKON has done to me. i just want to die.

why did you do this to me. why?

gurukula vetren.


Readers should be informed that this young lady has already apologized for her strong language against Sri Krsna and Srila Prabhupada. She is a victim of ISKCON's paedophilia protection racket, and should be given our full support.

Had ISKCON made as much noise about the monsters who raped children as they do about plans to protect assets, their concerns would have been self evident.

As it is (even though management has admitted awareness of the crimes), there has never been a single case where ISKCON has prosecuted a predator. Not in the past, nor at this present time. To the contrary, they have given protection, even given office to known offenders.

ISKCON will find very little sympathy (if any) in the public eye. This is the single most concentrated case of child-abuse in the history of man. To believe that material assets will be spotlighted, is just another ISKCON illusion. ISKCON's accumulation through expansion program may get some air, and its techniques of psychological slavery may be exposed. Other than that, the rape and abuse of its own children will take center stage. (SGd)


Thank you for your words... believe it or not i dont mean at all to be offensive to KRSNA or SRILA PRABHUPADA, but all that I was taught through my abuses was out of this Devotion for Them.

When they punished us or locked me in the dirty kitchen/closets it was Prabhupad's tape they played behind the door all day till they saw fit to let me out.... Sometimes the girls would slip chapatis under the door for me....

When I tell you that I can not even hear/see or smell anything devotional because I become physically ill, like nausea, cold sweats and crying lots of crying....

Sri Krsna AND Srila Prabhupad has been CRAMED down my throat and now what ever beauty you all seem to see, i just cant see it.... To much pain....

Whether i was misinformed about the true essence of Vaisnava life or not, I am ruined for life by it..... I am A Survivor no doubt....... and there are many of us out there.

So though I mean not offend you there is the other side that is just so angry. At the MisUse of your gods name and of his supposed pure devotees....and the need to sound respectful towards them so hard for me.....confusing.....impossible....

I am a product of all the glorious bull..... If there is a Krsna out there then He knows who I am..... where my heart is and where I came out of...... and I think He is much more merciful then we all think and He would understand my anger even if misguided threw teachings and abuse......

I dont know anymore who is up there but I know His love was not supposed to be like this.... From my Sad heart to yours I mean no offence.... I just need so badly to be HEARD for things to change and for JUSTICE.....

Thank you for every ones concern, it's almost surprising.... because I just have read so many negative things written about us and it comforting to know NOT everyone is blind, that there is compassion among some of the devotees.... Unlike how i was raised. i am just in so much pain and doing all I can to make sense of everything.

Of course there is no sense in it, it was a crazy mans life.

I just want Justice...... now in this lifetime.

Gurukul Vetren



Iskcon ex-child's experience
Date: 03. July 2000
from: (pada)

(an ex-child's experience fwd to pada)

From: ******
Date: Fri, 30 Jun 2000 19:17:09 EDT
Subject: children's grief

Dear pada, This letter says it all? Can some adults put themselves in the shoes of these kids? I do not think many of the adults would have survived what this one kid experienced? Were people too busy buying mango lassis for the gbc?


I live only miles away from the temple I grew up in. I have never been contacted in any way, and just found out about the lawsuit on the news. I hope this does completely ruin the devotees. Don't let the door hit ya on your way back to India, where you belong. This cult belongs in a country where women and children are not important. Family means nothing to devotees. Sad really.......

Like I said though, I am living only miles from the temple I grew up in. This is the temple I was raised in, this is the temple I gave myself to in every way, even ways I did not want to. I gave everything to this god ....everything I could at the age 4. My world revolved around pleasing these *** holes who raped me. I came to believe the abuse was normal. I gave my heart, my soul, my love, my body to these people. What did they expect of a child?

The memories are coming back so vividly now. I have been away from the movement for fifteen years, I put it in the back of my head, and I went on with life. I conformed to the "kharmis" because I had to survive. I was dropped in the real world in fifth grade, terrified of the kharmis, but so glad to be away from the devotees.

What the hell were they thinking? No cult can stay alive for long if the children are desperate to leave. Most of us hate the ground the temples stand on, and have dismissed a majority of the beliefs, simply because of our anger. After fifteen years of trying sooooo hard not to remember, I find myself thinking of little else now. It has consumed me completely lately. I was driving down the highway, and a flashback almost made me wreck my car. What a life we get to live now thanks to these *** holes.

Those jerks took so much from us. They took away the joy of love-making from me. Because my little baby body was messed with so much at such a young age, I will never be able to enjoy love-making, I will never desire for my husband to touch me. While the emotional desire is there, the act of love-making sickens me, and hurts terribly. I have had to have surgeries performed because of the pain in that area.

So, you jerks ...just as you spit upon me as a little girl, now I will spit upon your faces. Go to hell. I hope and pray, even if I cannot find the strength to join the lawsuit, I pray that your temples ALL have to be sold! I hope all of you guys, and ladies that allowed the abuse to go on, will also burn in hell.

I don't know anymore who God is...I know there is a higher being, and I know that being will not let those bastards get away with what they did.

BURN!!!!!!!! BURN!!!!!!!! BURN!!!!!!!!




Accounts of abuse by Iskcon children


remember as you read these testimonies, that this happened to little defenseless children, who were in residential schools, far far far away from our parents. warning content is shocking.
we have not included the names of the countless victims and perpetrators, and don't ask us either.
this is an emotional journey... if you are a parent and sent your child to gurukula, it could be the life of your child, and the perpetrator could be a friend of yours. many of our abusers are in high and respected positions within iskcon. listen to your child, without defending the religion and the gurus.





please also read:
Child Abusers Named

None of us escaped being abused... ,  and no one helped us... ,  and no one protected us.... , 
and no one believed us... ,  and no one listened.